I used to force thing to happen in my own time and with my own way but lately it's been proven that all good things come to those who wait. Wait for His timing and His perfect plan. I've been forcing this thing to happen for more than  a year or maybe almost two but who will imagine that the thing that I used to force to come by itself to me. I thank God for everything happen in me both good and bad times :)

It's been more than a year since the last time i wrote in this blog. I can't even remember what i wrote and what I was thinking when I wrote that. I have more thoughts that I wanted to share here but I don't know how to express those in words.

I used to believe in second chance and I used to give people second chance but now trust me, I only got 3 people that I could trust with my whole secret. First of course Babeh and there are two besties that I could trust with everything. Pity and Understand is two different thing! Trust me when you give people second chance coz you pity them, it won't last for a long time, when you give people second chance coz you understand them, it will last longer. Being hurt more than dozen times is not fun at all and trust me, when your friend hurt you that is the most painful thing ever than getting a break up with your boyfriend. Being hurt by your friend is worst than being hurt by your enemy.

I never want to keep doing revenge and I'm trying to forgive but IT WAS NOT EASY

Leaving Sydney was harder than leaving Indo.

I finally can found a place where I feel like home, with brothers and sisters around me and the togetherness that I can't found anywhere else.

Not only because I left the church but also because I left 4108, both are the only places I wish I could freeze the time and spend it with AGC family.

Distance might separate us but you guys will always stay in my heart.

I used to be regret. I used to wonder why God let me meet someone and let me love that person so much but at the end we will be separated. When things ended up in not so good way, I will regret and kept saying I wish I never meet them, I wish I never knew them, I wish, I wish and I wish. Till one day I just realise that I shouldn't regret of something that ever happened in my life because I once want them, I once made them, I once did it. No matter how much I regret I should remember that I once want them so badly in my life. I should regret in things that I didn't do.