4 more months to go and I'm stepping out from Sydney.

I didn't feel regret came to Sydney because Good and Bad things happened on the same time while I'm here, I have the experience being an overseas university student, experience the hard work of earning your own money, experience homesick, experience new culture, experience new church, experience suffering by myself, experience being left and being lonely, meet a lot of new friends, trying to be tough and trying to take care of myself.

I can say that I got new life here, something different from my life before.

Sydney is a good country but I just don't want to stay here, I want to be Home but I'm really sure that I'll miss Sydney soon or later.

Comparing my life between Sydney and Indo, both gave me some advantages and disadvantages but I made my choice.

Came to Sydney made me realise that "distance can't end friendship" really exist but to some people only.

Seeing and Learning how my friends live their live helps me a lot.

Each of them are different and the way they live their life are also different, they have their own uniqueness.

Learning new religion and make it part of my life is not easy, questions are inside my head, understanding, feeling it and learn it, it takes time.

Living in an apartment with people I love is one of the best thing that I will never forget, I can't imagine what my life would be without them.

I love people around me and I care for all of you. I will miss you Sydney, I will miss my memories in Sydney, I will miss people in Sydney, and I made the choice. Adios Sydney.

When we were little, we make friends with a lot of kids. Doesn't matter how they think, how they act, how they live their life and what they are going to be as they grow up. Misunderstanding, fighting, crying, shouting are just part of being in "kids friendship". Less that 24 hours then they are friends again.

As we grew up we learn how to make friends, we learn how to respect people, how to consider people's feeling , we start to learn from our mistakes, we start picking which one should be close and not close to and of course we can't run away from misunderstanding.

When we are teenagers we start using feelings (deep feelings), we learn what does it feel to fall in love, what does it feel to be broken hearted, what does it feel being betrayed by your friends, what does it feel to be left by people, what doest it feel when your friends talking bad about you behind your back and much more. We start treating life as a DRAMA.

Just count how many people you know in your life, how many of them are your friends?, how many of them are your best friends?, how many of them will stay till old?, how many of them who left?, how many of them who cares?, how many of them will remember you?.

I do have a lot of this kind of experience in my 17 years of life. Just want to remind you to choose your friend wisely. =)

"New year = brand new me"

I hope it can be applied to my life.

I am still who I am and I don't think I'm getting better or worst.

Well I supposed to be the brand new me, leave all the past and see the future.

My friend told me that I should be happy in all circumstances, well I'm trying even though its not easy like it sounds.

Another friend of mine said that before making everyone else happy, we should start from ourselves.

It was all about happiness that my friend was talking about.

Rather than thinking all the things I shouldn't think about and making myself upset.

Never cross my mind that it will work like this. You should try!

Today My Life Begins

Today My Life Begins by Bruno Mars

"I will break this chains that bind me, happiness will find me, leave the past behind me."

"A whole world is waiting, Its mine for the taking, I know I can make it."

"Life is too short to have regrets"

"All around me I can feel a change"

"Never stay the same"

This one song is stuck in my head. The lyrics really tell me something.

Him

I've been waiting for the right one from God but I couldn't say that I didn't love him.

I do love him and I do really care about him.

All the things that I seek is in him.

Oh God, if he is the right one for me let him be mine.

If he is not then give me the strength to let him go so both of us could get our best from you.
I know I might be wrong loving someone's boyfriend.
He is the only one I can't get my hearts off from.
I know we didn't work well, I know I might make a lot of mistakes.
Do second chance really exist? can I get one of them for this?
He is not the richest guy i've ever met
He is not the most good looking guy I've ever met
He is not the most sweet guy I've ever met
but he is the only one that make me forget all other guys.
None of those guys could make me feel like what I felt for him.
So God if you let me, let it be. If it's not then I will stop waiting.
Years is enough to feel the pain but if he is happy then keep it that way God