"New year = brand new me"

I hope it can be applied to my life.

I am still who I am and I don't think I'm getting better or worst.

Well I supposed to be the brand new me, leave all the past and see the future.

My friend told me that I should be happy in all circumstances, well I'm trying even though its not easy like it sounds.

Another friend of mine said that before making everyone else happy, we should start from ourselves.

It was all about happiness that my friend was talking about.

Rather than thinking all the things I shouldn't think about and making myself upset.

Never cross my mind that it will work like this. You should try!

Today My Life Begins

Today My Life Begins by Bruno Mars

"I will break this chains that bind me, happiness will find me, leave the past behind me."

"A whole world is waiting, Its mine for the taking, I know I can make it."

"Life is too short to have regrets"

"All around me I can feel a change"

"Never stay the same"

This one song is stuck in my head. The lyrics really tell me something.

Him

I've been waiting for the right one from God but I couldn't say that I didn't love him.

I do love him and I do really care about him.

All the things that I seek is in him.

Oh God, if he is the right one for me let him be mine.

If he is not then give me the strength to let him go so both of us could get our best from you.
I know I might be wrong loving someone's boyfriend.
He is the only one I can't get my hearts off from.
I know we didn't work well, I know I might make a lot of mistakes.
Do second chance really exist? can I get one of them for this?
He is not the richest guy i've ever met
He is not the most good looking guy I've ever met
He is not the most sweet guy I've ever met
but he is the only one that make me forget all other guys.
None of those guys could make me feel like what I felt for him.
So God if you let me, let it be. If it's not then I will stop waiting.
Years is enough to feel the pain but if he is happy then keep it that way God

For Good

Going back for good can be a good and bad news for me at the same time.

Bad News:

• No more Antioch Gospel Church
• No more world tower
• No more Meta, Viny, Aris and Rico *saddest part ='(
• No more Josiah
• No more catching buses, trains, monorails and trams
• No more long chit chat with house mate
• No more hanging out together
• No more own salary

Good News:

• Sleeping on my own bed
• Meeting my family
• Drive my own car
• Won't get bored anymore
• All my wants and need being fulfil
• Eating home made cooks
• Driver and maids

Well oh well..

When some things began it will end up anyway.

What I'll miss the most is the chit chat time with Meta.. =(..

She is the one who taught me a lot of stuffs.

She is the one who will say things for my own good.

She is the one who give me advices.

She is the one who accompany me almost everywhere.

GAH! Thanks for everything Meta and sorry for everything too.

I wish everything I want can be granted.

If you are saying I am no longer your friend because you are no longer virgin.

Keep those words in your mind. I am not that type of friend.

No matter you are girl or boy,

no matter you are virgin or not,

no matter you are short or tall,

no matter what

as long as I am comfort being your friend and

we have a lot of common that is more than enough for me.

So keep those bullshits on your thoughts.

It's been monthsss that I haven't write anything on this blog.

Somehow I miss writing, miss expressing all the things inside my brain.

Struggle? I didn't call it as struggle but I just have a lot of stuffs on my mind.

Some things getting better. Some things getting worse.

I hope my brain and my heart could cooperate with one another to fix it.