i am trying to be humble not to be saint

i am facing a problem right now..its just a small problem but it always stay in my mind..i never picky in making friends..i never do bad things to someone who didn't hurt me but this person is backstabbing me..i was wondering what i have done to that person till that person did this to me..

i told some of my friends regarding this problem and each of them telling me different opinion about my problem..actually in every single problem, you only have 2 choices..either let it be or revenge..but i didn't choose any of those..

i just take the middle way which is to be quiet and let someone else do the revenge..what i meant by be quiet is i didn't do like what that person did to me coz if i do the same thing like what that person did to me, it means i am similar to that person..

actually it feels good if you can revenge or your friends do the revenge for u..but it feels more good if someone else do the same thing to that person like how that person did it do me without i ask for it..it prove that karma works and GOD do what He supposed to do..

i am doing this not because i am trying to be saint but i am trying to be a humble person who believe that every time i lose something at the same time i gain something new and i believe that GOD has create a great life path for me..

i will not let this situation make me change to be who i am not..i will try my best to be who i am with the help of my sisters and friends..i rather have few best friends around me rather that a lot of fools around me..

something is in my mind

WHAT IF you feel like you have DOUBLE PERSONALITY?

in one side you are

a kind person who make friends with all people,

who try your best to help your friends who are in difficult times,

but never be aware of those people who try to do bad things to you

in other side you are

picky in making friends,

who never care about what people think about you,

who never care with anything,

who is sensitive and temperamental,

but aware of those people who are trying to do something bad behind your back

WHAT IF?!

you used to be someone who is sensitive and temperamental but after trying so hard you have changed to be the better side of you even though it took months and almost a year to do it.

for a year you live happily with what you have got, you happy with friends you've got, with people around you

BUT!

just because of something small happened, you can feel that your bad attitude is coming again..your emotion try to control you..you don't have enough power to against it..you let it flow to your body

WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN NEXT?!

are you going to go away from your friend's life?so they wont experience bad times in their life? OR are you trying to control yourself and ask people around you and who are willing to help you help to control you?

Somehow facebook is important

Because I am too excited with my holiday yet I am always getting tired after I went out, I never open my facebook during my holiday in Jakarta..

Somehow I feel like jet lag too..

At 10 pm I sleep and wake up at 6 or 7 am..

I am too busy planning what to do each day..

When the day I arrived Sydney, my friend Elizabeth ask me wether I know that photography student got a week extra holiday due to the studio is still under construction..

I was shocked..

She said that every photography student posted it in their status and too bad i never open my facebook..

School also tried to tell us by phone call and too bad also my sydney's number is not active..

I wish I know this earlier so I can extend my day in Jakarta..=(

Hello again blog!

Its been a month that i haven't update my blog coz i was busy..busy hanging out..haha..

3 weeks ago I was in Jakarta having my super short holiday for 2 weeks

I am super busy..

The day i arrived Jakarta which is Friday, I went to Emporium Pluit to watch with my family

The next day I went to cie mei had a super early breakfast with Cindy, Elvira, Katherine and Jeanice

On Sunday I invited my best friends to come to my house for dinner and BBQ

On Monday I went to viti cafe, it is a new wine cafe near my house with Cindy, Elvira, Katherine and Mega

On Tuesday I stayed at home and Katherine came to my house

On Wednesday I went to dermaga with Cindy

On Thursday I stayed at home and rest

On Friday I accompanied Katherine and went for a movie night "when in rome" with Cindy, Elvira, Karen and Janice

On Saturday morning I went to sis pik bazaar with Cindy, Elvira, Katherine and Janice after that we went to EX and we watched "cop out"..after ex we went to Emporium pluit to watched "date night" at 12.30 am..

On Sunday morning Cindy, Elvira, Janice and I went to Pak min (delicious noodle) and we went to vanny's house

On Monday I went to Emporium Pluit with Elvira and do some silly stuff at Gramedia..haha..

On Tuesday Cindy, Elvira, Katherine, Mega and I went to Preng (nicest mie tek") haha..

On Wednesday I did some photoshoot at Ancol

On Thursday I went for swimming at PIK FIT with Cindy, Elvira and Jeanice

On Friday, which is my last day hanging out with my friends..We (Cindy, Dorena, Elvira, Katherine, Jasmine, Jeanice, Mega and I) ate at sushi tei then we watched Iron Man 2 then we moved from Senayan City to Plaza Senayan to ate haagen dazs..

On Saturday, which is my last day at Jakarta..Cindy, Elvira, Janice and I went to Vanny's house because her parent invited us for lunch..they cooked for us and we talked about lots of stuff..on the way from Vanny's house, Elvira's car got accident..Stupid driver knocked her car and ran away..They stayed in my house for few hours because they can't accompany me to the airport..I received few calls and Katherine's phone call made me cried the most..haha..but at the end she made me laughed by saying silly stuff..haha..=)..thanks Kath..

I seriously enjoyed my holiday with my friends!

I wish I could stay longer

what do you live for?

I was asked last week by one person..

"what do you live for?"

and I was wondering

and I was thinking

what do I live for?

I don't even know.

I just go with the flow.

I believe GOD has a great plan for my life.

I just do everything I need to do.

I just face anything in front of me.

Try not to complaining.

Try my best to face the truth.

I love my life right now.

I am living in Sydney currently.

I enjoyed my subjects.

I met great friends here.

I have my family that always support me.

I have obewack.

I have two sisters.

I thank GOD for all.

I LOVE MY LIFE RIGHT NOW..

hope it will last as long as possible